Looking Back

This morning I picked up an old diary – 1983- to be exact. I turned to today’s date [ May 9th]; just like today Monday , May 9th. I was curious to see what was happening in my life then as a teenager. It wasn’t a lovely day. For some reason my mom was not talking to me. I vaguely remember the details, but I remember the emotions.

I wasn’t a very emotional teen and I didn’t talk a lot at home either. More of an introvert, my feelings were chronicled in my diary. Being the only one in my home who professed to have a serious faith walk, I found my solace in talking to God. I remember how I sensed His presence with me during this time. This was close to the time I was studying for finals. I needed to focus. This family drama could not and would not stop me from passing my exams. It didn’t. Where did I find that inner resolve as a young teen?

Looking back, I had discovered at young age that there was One greater than me who loved me and wanted to do this life with me. Every road I have travelled, He has been there. That season passed. There was no dramatic show down between my mom and I. When my finals were done, I asked her what the problem was. She mentioned something that seemed ridiculous to me at the time. Anyway, I was a teenager – lots of things our parents say are laughable. I moved on and I guess she did. BTW, I was not a rebellious teen.😎 I was just a teen who had a life and knew how not to sweat some stuff! 😅

Seasons don’t last. Thirty-nine years later, I don’t even remember all the details of that moment. I am so glad it didn’t drive a wedge between my mom and I. I have since learned to look at my current situations in light of eternity or even 5 years later. Will it matter then? The thing that’s consuming you today- pause and ask yourself a few questions. Is it worth the effort? Will it matter in 5 days, 5 months, or 5 years? Does it have anything to do with my destiny or purpose here on earth? In light of eternity, does it matter? We have limited mental and emotional energy. Choose your battles wisely. While conflict resolution is important, use wisdom in your efforts. Guard the relationships that matter; even if you have to take the lower ground. Seek peace and pursue it.

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