I’m Trying

I’ve been on a mini staycation for the last view days. Unwinding, recalibrating and relaxing- by myself. I took this picture as a reminder of the imperfect me; the one I’m working on. At home I noticed this behavior: I have a habit of leaving cabinet and cupboard doors opened. They don’t stay open for long but if you are in the kitchen with me, you might find it annoying. I am aware and I’m working on it. God knows I’m trying!

I busted out laughing at the resort when I saw those cabinet doors opened. Thankfully no one else was here at the moment. I can laugh at myself without disrupting anyone’s flow. Later in the afternoon, I had some friends over and I brought up the topic. I am happy to say in my fifties, I am not alone. As we chatted it’s freeing to know we can own our flaws and those little idiosyncrasies that can be irritating. The wonderful part is we are trying to self correct. ‘Take me as I am’ can be highly overrated. One of my life’s goal is not to be old and ‘hard to live with’. I’m intentional about doing the work now.

I’ve grown to embrace the perfectly imperfect me. Grace has become one of my bed partners. I could not do without it. God sees I’ve stumbled more times than I care to remember. However, I’m also a believer in coming up higher and doing better when we can. We leave the rest to God – He knows how to refine accordingly.

Are you struggling with your ‘open cabinet doors’ today? I’m happy you’ve recognized that you do have annoying quirks and habits. It’s humbling, isn’t it? Don’t believe the lie- you’re not alone! I pray that where you desire change, change will come. Like me, extend a little grace to yourself and laugh a little. Change will come. God sees we are trying!

And I am certain that God who began the good work within you, will bring it to completion….

Philippians 1:6